So....

Today,

I woke up and caught up on all my laundry =]

I was so glad I got it all done!

Then Garrett and I had date night and it was amazing

we ate dinner, got dessert, and watched

"Diary of a wimpy kid"

It was alright, not to bad.

Us at Knotts celebrating our 1 year anniversary

we like to be goof balls =]

Well I went on FB and found out

my aunt wants to be friends w/ me but

I don't really want her in my life anymore.

It's hard for me to tell her that cause after being reunited

when I was about 12 or 13 I spent every weekend with her

and my cousins. 

But then they moved out of state when I was about 16

Well then there was some legal issues involving my grandparents from my mothers side

and my aunt ( who is my fathers sister)

and ever since things have been a mess with the families

but I never got involved cause I was still kinda young for all of it

Well now I'm older and I know whats going on,

but I never held that against my aunt,

I called her and made lunch plans with her when she was in town...

she bailed on me. no phone call, no text message... nothing

then I called her again the next day, no answer, no call back

then I called her on her birthday this year,

left her a voicemail telling her I'd love to talk to her and happy birthday

nothing.. no call back, no FB message, nothing.

So i deleted her and I came up with the conclusion that I already dealt

with something like this before with my grandma ( my dads mom)

She use to make plans and promises but never followed through.

Well I'm not a kid anymore.

I don't have to forgive just cause she is family.

I'm at the age where if someone isn't treating me right

and not giving me the respect I feel I deserve,

family or not, I don't have to put up with it.

I'm not saying she has to call me every week, don't get me wrong

but hearing from her would be nice.

and not when things are going against her in the court case.

I mean my sister lives out of state and yeah she doesn't answer everytime I call her

and yeah there are periods where we don't talk cause we are busy

dealing with our own lives and problems.

but in the end we have never gone more than a month ( if that)

without talking. 

But now I don't know how to tell my aunt that I don't want her

to be apart of my life.

She was such a huge part of my life for 3 or 4 years

then she just disappeared,

broke plans,

stopped calling, stopped all contact.

ugh......

When your young you always want to be so grown up,

then when you start growing up and your faced

with hard things like this

you kinda wish you were younger

when mom and dad use to stick up and make these decisions for you