So

It's been a while

This past Sunday, I went to Church with a few friends from work

I've never been the type to volunteer to go to church

but when I went it was nice

I started accutane yesterday and I was nervous

 but now I'm feeling alright, I don't feel so anxious

but more excited,

my face has been feeling like a connect

the dots game and it's embarrassing

I feel like my skin has never been this bad and now that it is

I'm thankful that my mom pushed this on me.

I've never been able to understand why my skin

has bothered her so much but now that my skin is becoming worse

I know why it's so hard to look at.

Granted my mom has said some thing about my skin that weren't

right and appropriate to say to your daughter

but she ment it out of love and now I understand that

My younger sister is now in her apartment and it's weird not having her around

we work together but I don't even see her there anymore

I miss her.

Same with my older sister and niece

We talked on skype a few days ago and I was

amazed at how well Skyler was talking

I hadn't seen or talked to her since like march or april

and she has grown up so much

Garrett said for christmas he was going to pay to send me

out to mississippi to see them cause I had been having emotional

breakdowns cause I feel so alone here without

my sisters but we agreed no

christmas gifts cause we both can't afford it

but hopefully soon I will see them soon!